If tomorrow they locked us all in jail, how many of us could testify our way out? I’ve been looking at mug shot books all morning and nobody in this whole jury of peers collection looks not guilty. I wonder, if they gave me the book of women, would I find innocence there? And one more thing, why don’t they photograph the one angle I was always happy to see, the back of his head? I could finger this guy, or this one, but they might have alibis. When they found me this morning at the bottom of the stairs in someone else’s apartment building, limbs twisted, the pounding in my head was opportunity knocking. I want this one to stick. The guys I’ve known have all known guys like these; they’ve all done to some poor girl what he’s been doing to me, now one of them can answer, I don’t care which. It can’t matter that this time I truly did fall downstairs. That’s nothing compared to the number of times I’ve let them get away with worse. No one will doubt, to look at me, that I’ve been badly misused. My bones have long memories too, if they care to look. So do cops, apparently, and methods like mine as well. They don’t direct me to the pictures they like, but they know which books and pages to put in front of me to refresh my memory. My eyes are swollen and my hand’s in a cast, so it’s not surprising that my first attempts to point out my attackers require interpretation. Together I think we’ll find the right guys and if we can hurry to the courthouse while I still look like this, I know the good people of the jury will feel my pain.
Copyright © June 04, 2008 David Hodges
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June 5, 2008 at 7:24 am
grantman
…sometimes justice is blind to even revenge! How many of us would just like to get even for the sake of getting even. In this case I just hope she isn’t pointing that finger at me!!! .. good one
Grantman
You’re probably safe, unless your picture’s in that book. Thanks, Grantman.
–David
June 5, 2008 at 8:57 am
Emily
I love how effectively you portray the ugliness of the human psyche.
And I love how effectively you portray its frank beauty.
–David
June 5, 2008 at 5:56 pm
briseis
“Ugliness of the human psyche” indeed. It’s a testament to your ability how well, and painfully, this resounded with me, David.
That’s sweet, Briseis. I know you resound to the beautiful pieces too. Thank you.
–David
June 9, 2008 at 2:29 am
Wizzer
“Together I think we’ll find the right guys” – So do I.
How easily a victim can turn villain.
July 19, 2012 at 5:17 am
Pieter
Very well writen…found this site and loving it